YouTube star Landon Clifford struggled with his mental health, was addicted to various prescription drugs and hanged himself in his garage, his heartbroken wife revealed.
Landon Clifford (19) ran a YouTube channel with his wife Camryn (19), where they worked as Cam & Fam and had more than 1.35 million subscribers.
Camryn announced that Landon passed away on August 18 from a brain injury, without giving any further details.
On Thursday, Camryn posted a new emotional YouTube video explaining how he died and that her husband was privately struggling with anxiety and depression and had had ADHD since childhood.
She said on August 13th that he hanged himself in the garage of her home and that she knocked him down with a knife and called the police.
He spent six days in a coma in the hospital and was pronounced brain dead on August 18.
Camryn Clifford, the wife of 19-year-old YouTube star Landon Clifford, announced that he suffered from mental health problems, was addicted to various drugs and hanged himself in her garage on August 13. After six days in a coma, he was pronounced brain dead on August 18
Landon and Camryn, both 19, operated a popular YouTube channel, Cam & Fam, to which they had more than 1.35 million subscribers
Camryn said Landon fell into depression after greeting their second Delilah Rose Clifford in May. The couple share two daughters – Collette Briar Clifford, two, and Delilah, three months.
“He's had mental health problems as long as I've known him. He suffered from anxiety and depression. He has ADHD, which he has had since childhood, so all his life he has been struggling with just his emotions and the way his brain was wired, ”Camryn said.
Camryn said Landon went to a psychiatrist to help with his panic attacks, depression, and difficulty concentrating and was given three drugs.
But he got into a dangerous cycle of taking ADHD medication in the morning and anti-anxiety medication intended only for panic attacks to calm himself down at night.
"It was kind of a lethal mix of those two very strong, heavy drugs that were both very addicting and he just fell into a hole," Camryn revealed.
She said Landon has privately struggled with anxiety, depression and ADHD since he was a child and got into a "vicious circle" of drug use
Camryn shared this photo with one hand on Landon while he was in a coma in the hospital
“He needed the upper to get up in the morning and the lower to slow down at night. And the more bitterness he took at night, the more tops he had to get up … So it was a very, very diabolical cycle and he was taking more and more and needed more for his body to feel its effects, ”she added.
She said she did not know that he was abusing drugs and although the two experienced brief bliss after the birth of Delilah, the reality of caring for two children hit us "hard".
They took a break and stayed separately with their families to work on their mental health and so Landon could get off drugs.
She said that after he went to his family in Dallas, he told his psychiatrist that he was addicted to his drugs and only used antidepressants.
"It really seemed like things were getting better and we were going back to our normal routine," she said.
On August 13, Landon apologized to Camryn for having had a hard time. He said he would take a bath and Camryn later found him unavailable in the garage. She called the police and he was taken to the hospital
The couple welcomed their second daughter, Delilah Rose Clifford, in May
But on August 13, Camryn said she had sensed something with Landon.
Camryn was going out with a friend and when she got home they had dinner and went through their typical nighttime routine, but she could tell that something was wrong with Landon.
& # 39; He said he was sorry for everything he did to me. It was really hard for me when I was pregnant and he was heavy with his addiction and he really wasn't himself at the time. He just apologized to me for everything. I could see he was blaming himself a lot, ”Camryn said.
"I told him that I loved him and that I have forgiven him and things are different now and we are on a new path. I gave him a hug and a kiss and told him I love him and that it was fine is, "she added.
Landon said he would take a bath, which he does every night before bed.
About 30 minutes later, she heard her first daughter Collette wake up and get upset.
Concerned, Camryn went to the bathroom to check on Landon and found it empty, the bathtub apparently unused.
She went to her children's rooms and did not find him there.
"Then I went into the garage and when I opened the garage I saw that he was hanging," she said.
"He didn't look alive. He was very pale and I was so shocked it took me a second to realize it was actually happening," she added.
She ran into the kitchen to get a knife to cut him down and called 911. She said she checked him for a pulse and found none.
EMT workers were able to get Landon's pulse back.
Carmyn and Landon married in June 2019 and share two daughters, Collette Briar Clifford (two) and Delilah (three months)
"Today we celebrate his life," said Camryn in a Saturday post, posing with friends and family
He spent days in a hospital in a coma and was pronounced brain dead on August 18.
Camryn said he was a registered organ donor.
& # 39; He has always put others above himself. He cared for people even in death, ”she said.
Camryn said she saw signs of comfort as she said goodbye to Landon.
He was in Room 22 and pronounced brain dead at 2:22 a.m. – a special number for the couple when they got married on June 22nd.
Camryn said Landon left no note.
“I know Landon. I know he wasn't thinking rationally. He is a very impulsive person. He always has been and he does things without thinking and I think he felt guilty about how everything went over the last year and I think he just felt like a burden and like we would be better off without him what so Far from the truth and I wish he had known, ”Camryn said.
& # 39; My heart is broken. Collette is confused. There's no way we're any better off without him, ”she added.
Camryn said she was setting out on his tragic death to urge other people suffering from similar ailments to get help.
“If he knew everything that would follow after doing what he did, he would not have done it. That's why I'm here to tell his story because there are so many people who need to hear what comes after, ”she said.
If you or someone you know needs help, please call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255).
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