A mother, whose husband and daughter died after being thrown overboard by their speedboat, said she would never be able to continue from the tragedy, but had reached a moment of acceptance.
48-year-old Victoria Milligan and her 51-year-old husband Nick had a family vacation in Padstow, Cornwall with their four children, Kit, Amber, Olivia and Emily, when they were thrown from their boat into the camel mouth in May 2013.
Ms. Milligan's husband Nick and daughter Emily were killed in the accident, in which the empty speedboat got out of control at high speed before it hit the family while the mother of four lost her left leg.
Now, seven years after the tragedy, Ms. Milligan has spoken about how she and her family have "moved forward" with the memories of Nick, who was an executive at Sky, and Emily, who was eight years old at the time.
Victoria Milligan (pictured), 48, spoke about a moment of acceptance after the death of her husband Nick, 51, and their daughter Emily
Pictured: Victoria, center, with Emily, Nick, Olivia, Kit and Amber from left to right. The family was on vacation in Cornwall on Nick's speedboat when the accident occurred
The family was thrown overboard by their speedboat in Padstow, Cornwall, in May 2013. Pictured: Rescuers are preparing to board the runaway speedboat in the Camel Estuary in Cornwall
In conversation with Andy Coulson in the podcast Crisis What Crisis? The mother of four, who married Nick in 1999, said the family had visited their Cornwall vacation home when the terrible accident occurred.
She said, "It was a wonderful day, the first time this year. We had a fantastic morning climbing and splashing in the sea. We just had a really nice family holiday weekend together. & # 39;
But shortly after the tide rose, the family left were thrown from their speedboat while making a sharp turn.
Ms. Milligan continued: “The six of us were thrown into freezing water in life jackets. The killing cord was not attached to either of us. This is the safety device that is attached to the boat when someone leaves the engine control.
"The first thing I saw when I got up was that the boat was going around in very tight bends, so it was just a perfect storm of events with the kill string, the tide gong, the gas pedal and the boat that just came back to us very close, very fast circles. & # 39;
She added: "It was so loud and loud and adrenaline is pumping through your body and almost a king of stubbornness everything will be fine, everything will be fine. I couldn't hear screaming or anything like that.
& # 39; The RNLI boat came next to us and a brave crew member jumped into our boat to turn off the engine, and then it was strangely quiet.
"I was pretty badly injured and I remember seeing blood in the water without knowing whether it was mine or kit because I couldn't feel anything because of the cold and adrenaline pumping through your body .
Then I remember Amber shouting, "Papa is dead, Papa is dead." A 12-year-old girl had seen Nicko in the water. It's not really worth thinking about. & # 39;
Mrs. Milligan with Olivia (left), Amber and Kit (right) at the Cornish Air Ambulance after collecting £ 250,000
The mother of four children with daughters Oliver (left), who were unharmed in the accident, and Amber (right), who had scars on her left thigh and hand
Ms. Milligan said she would "never overcome the pain of losing her family," but she had "reached the moment of acceptance."
The family was rescued by an RNLI and Ms. Milligan lost the lower part of her left leg.
Kit took 12 operations to save his, while Amber had scars on her left thigh and hand. Only Olivia survived unscathed.
Now, years after her ordeal, the personal trainer, who has learned to walk with a prosthesis again and is now becoming a bereavement counselor, said that she would never overcome the pain of losing her family, but she had achieved it. the moment of acceptance & # 39 ;.
She said, "I hate this sentence: keep going, get over it. Because why should I get over it? Grief is the honor of the love we had for these people. & # 39;
She added: "In this seven year period, I feel like I may finally have reached the moment of acceptance. I think we are all in a good place."
Despite her trauma, Ms. Milligan said she and her family would now return to Cornwall to visit Emily's favorite beach and Nick's favorite golf course.
Ms. Milligan continued, "I feel like Nick and Emily are moving forward with us in our lives and we have so many happy memories down there that it feels wrong to lock something up that was such a happy part of our lives even though I arrive and get a stab in the heart of suffering. Memories come back. & # 39;
She added: “I felt very much in the first few years when I was only surviving.
"I was a bit of a robot going through life and parenting and eating movements and choosing schools, and there was no joy, there was no fun and it was such a contrast to our life before that was happy and optimistic and was positive and joyful and I thought that just wasn't fair for them. It is not fair to me.
"We had an incredible life and we worked so hard to have a good life with Nick and Emily and yes they are not here and it is desperately sad but they will never be here physically and we have to try a way to honor their memory and live a great life without being physically present. & # 39;
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