Dame Barbara Windsor moved to a full-time nursing home two weeks ago while constantly fighting dementia.
The husband of the 82-year-old EastEnders star, Scott Mitchell, announced the news to The Sun on Friday when he admitted that the move had "broken his heart" on the advice of her neurologist.
Scott, 57, told the publication, “I feel an emotional roller coaster ride. I walk around trying to stay busy and then burst into tears. It feels like a bereavement.
For her health: Barbara Windsor, 82, was transferred to a nursing home when husband Scott Mitchell admitted on Friday that he was "broken" in her fight against dementia (Photo 2017).
"It has always been my greatest fear that one day I would have to take her somewhere and she would think:" Why should he do this to me? "This fear has become a reality. I never wanted it. & # 39;
Scott fought back tears when he talked about bringing Barbara to the nursing home when he admitted that he felt "so raw" about the decision.
He added that Barbara's neurologist had advised him to tell her that she would go away for a few days because her doctors were changing medication.
When he said he felt "terrible" when he brought her to the nursing home because she "didn't know" what was happening, he added: "Going out of the house that day was an incredibly difficult thing because in I really am. " Doubt whether Barbara will ever return. & # 39;
In good hands: Scott announced that Barbara (pictured in January) moved to a full-time nursing home in London two weeks ago on the advice of her neurologist
Scott then explained that Barbara had been taken and put in a wheelchair by nursing home staff in London since she had recently started having difficulty walking.
The actress remained positive under the circumstances when her husband said she kissed roommates and wanted to hold her hands.
Because of the coronavirus crisis, she had to isolate herself for two weeks, but Scott said he hoped she could mingle and get to know each other now.
When he emotionally thought about how Barbara was looked after by a 24/7 nurse, Scott admitted that she felt in her clear moments that she was realizing that the move was not temporary, and believed that he was failing her calmly.
Emotional: When he threw back the tears, Scott said: "It has always been my greatest fear that one day I would have to take her somewhere and she would think:" Why should he do this to me? "
Scott said she sometimes blames him for moving, claiming that he knows it is not the Barbara he knows, and believes it is understandable that she would feel like that because "who else will she blame".
In response, Scott makes sure that he tells her that he loves her and explains that he is doing what is best for her health.
Scott said he visited the house she was in several times and chose a spacious room that he filled with family photos, posters of her work, and other great moments like receiving her damehood to make it feel more homely.
The day he took her to the nursing home, Scott admitted that he felt "sick in the pit of the stomach" for leaving her there after they had spent so much time together during their 27 years together.
Candid: When he said he felt "terrible" when he brought her to the nursing home because she "didn't know" what was happening, he added, "I doubt Barbara will ever return."
In the months prior to Barbara's handover to the nursing home, Scott had around-the-clock caregivers in her home because the star often woke up at night and fell due to poor health.
Barbara also had difficulty walking from one room to another without becoming breathless and needed help getting into the bathroom, which was difficult for them at home because they did not have the facilities.
Scott said he feared she would be seriously injured if she stayed in her house and admitted that his concerns overruled his guilt feelings about taking her home because it was not feasible to stay allow.
Scott added that he hoped Barbara would soon feel normal in the nursing home, and although she sometimes "gets angry" with him, he knew that the decision was the best and would benefit her in the long run.
Combat: Scott said in her clearer moments that the star realized that the move was not temporary and sometimes felt like he had let her down.
In June, Scott admitted that he "always feared" that Barbara would be taken to a nursing home, and said he couldn't imagine ever letting her leave her marital home.
Scott, who is her primary caregiver, announced at the time that a specialist had told him about the disruptive development after her Alzheimer's fight was "worryingly advanced".
At the time, the theater agent added that he had experienced some "fairly dark moments" since the appointment.
While appearing in ITVs Living with Dementia with the former East Enders star's on-screen son, Ross Kemp, he admitted to having sent her to a nursing home, which he "always feared".
Scott explained: “I've always feared that. He basically tells me that I have to prepare myself that at some point it can no longer be sustainable to give her the kind of care she needs in the house.
"I've had some pretty dark moments since he said that because part of me knows it's most likely the truth and it has to happen. There is another part of me who cannot imagine letting her go.
"I can't imagine leaving this lady if she talks to me like this and takes her somewhere and thinks:" Why did he do this to me? "
Doting: While he understood her frustrations with the nursing home, Scott said he was telling her that he loved her and explained that it was best for her health to stay there
The Carry On actress was diagnosed with a degenerative condition in 2014 that was looked after by her husband Scott around the clock before being taken to a nursing home.
The actor married EastEnders star Barbara in 2000, and it has been reported that Scott was struggling with corona virus blocking because Barbara couldn't understand why no one was visiting her.
Her close friend Christopher Biggins, 71, told The Sun: “She's a little confused about what's going on because no one can visit her.
Heartbreaking: In the months before Barbara was handed over to the nursing home, Scott had carers in her house around the clock because the star was often injured at night
"It's not because she thinks she doesn't like me because her husband Scott explains it to her, but she just forgets the explanation and asks all the time."
Barbara, best known for her role as Peggy Mitchell in EastEnders and for her leading role in nine carry-on films, announced in May 2018 that she was suffering from the disease, which is currently not cured after she was diagnosed in 2014.
Her husband Scott said her condition worsened earlier this year and the legendary actress was often confused about where she was.
Wish: Scott hopes that Barbara, best known for her role as Peggy Mitchell in EastEnders (pictured with co-star Danny Dyer), will soon feel a sense of normalcy in the nursing home
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